Bedrest...makes me ramble

I know I abandoned ship with the whole blogging thing. After Thanksgiving (wow back in 2010) we found out we were pregnant with baby boy #2! Well we did not know it was a boy then, just a little pea sized something that made me royally sick. However, I just let everything slide including this blog. I just had nothing to say but "Dang I'm tired!" Being pregnant the second time around and with a maniacal toddler running around is rough. I think back to the "blissful" days I had being pregnant with Benjamin, wearing my cute maternity clothes, shopping at Whole Foods, putting my feet up after work. Oh, and sleeping in on weekends, but I have been missing that for close to two years now!

Anyway, I am re-engaging the blog because after a couple of insane weeks in and out of Labor/Delivery for Pre-term labor contractions the doctor put me on bed rest. At first it was for a week but my body just does not want to calm down so she is extending it most likely until I am full-term. So begins my internment to my bed, couch, and bathroom. That will be my life for the next 9 weeks or so.

Thankfully I have incredible friends and family who have been helping me with Ben and bringing over food, cleaning, etc. I have been so blessed by so many and I realize the benefit and goodness found in true community, especially my church community. Y'all know who you are!

I am trying to take this a day at a time. I can't think to much about it or I might start throwing things or just run out of my house screaming. I feel like I am grieving my summer and all the things I would normally do with Ben, all the plans big and small that I had. I was really looking forward to having a couple of months to just be with Benjamin, to make some fun memories, and have all these fun little summertime outings. So I am sad and disappointed. I have definitely cried it out, a few times, and said "I can't do it! No way! I am going to the mall!" Just to be dramatic. But I don't want to spend this time feeling sorry for myself every day. I think this time can be full of surprises and little joys and triumphs too. I am truly thankful to have good doctors and nurses caring for me and doing their best to make sure this little boy stays in as long as possible. Cook little baby cook!!

So today was uneventful to the normal able-bodied person, but this is all I have. Read a book, eat a cookie, watch a movie, take a bath, check facebook 500 times, brush my teeth, sit outside in the sweltering heat, check facebook again, eat some yogurt, check the mail (again), BLOG! And Mark will be home in about 10 minutes, so now I say it was a successful BR day, I made it!